I want a name like 离歌笑

离歌笑 ("Departing with singing and laughters")

Most of the time, we cry when we leave some place, some one, or somethings behind.
Perhaps the reason is that we will never get to see it again. However, it is well said that most of the time, it's simply because we were not able to treasure it when we used to have it. We thought that we had time to do better, but all of sudden, we need to leave it behind. 

We need not convince ourselves to stop shedding tears, but rather, to learn to love the people and things we have right now. Because if we have fully loved, we will be able to fully leave in joy, and the joy comes from the knowledge that our beloved will be moving forward to a better place, a better future.

(p.s. I'm also promoting the Chinese Drama "怪侠一枝梅")

Oasis

Sometimes you enter a situation knowing what you want, hoping that the same desire would be reciprocated.
In most cases, things don't turn out as well as you might have imagined.

I like to believe in hope, to believe in something hopeless. It doesn't matter how many times I fail, how many times I fall when I put my feet on the water. I like to always try, always wait. I like to know that I will find myself standing in the end.

I have once failed; I have once been rejected; I have once been pushed away; I have once lost hope.
Like most people, I do not have the courage and confidence to walk forward when the road ahead seems dark and purposeless. Like most people, I like to give up and I like to recoil.

In the end though, I like to believe that the Lord will send me courage, that if I believe in Him, He will bring me miracles - just like finding an oasis in the middle of the desert.

Resolving the unresolved...

2011, a new year.

Whether or not I count it as a new beginning is somewhat pointless.
It's just another year, nothing special.
Life moves forward after all, and it is not limited by the turn of years, neither the turn of centuries.

Perhaps that is why I don't see the need to set any particular "new year resolution".
If in fact, there needs to be one, it should be a daily resolution, or even a hourly, minutely resolution...if there is such a thing.

For what reasons do we even need resolutions?
To motivate us to do somethings that we have never done before?
To dare us to lose another 15 pounds perhaps?
To push us off of the career cliff and find a $50,000 job someday?
To hang us by the neck as we keep on pulling those all-nighters to get a precious A?
To skip all the shame as we cram in that 15 min prayer/QT session before bedtime?

Those were the reasons I used have for my resolutions, and I achieved nothing.
I have started to find them pointless, hopeless, and useless.

However, I am not entirely pessimistic...
If anything, I would only like to resolve the unresolved...
From the last hour, the last day, the last month, the last year, or even the last decade.
Those, I have plenty.